I told myself that this year I was going to take more time for myself.  I decided that I was going to go out and do things without my children.  I was going to sleep in, shirk responsibility at least one day a week and put me first. 

In Justin Timberlake's ever so catchy, slightly altered words: I was bringing Betsey back.

The first day of this new lifestyle was great.  I left daddy in charge of everything.  I slept until 11 for the first time in over 5 years, left all four kids home for the day, worked on my writing in blessed silence and didn’t even feel guilty about it.  Shocking, I know.

How am I doing now that a week has passed?  Not so great.  I can’t seem to motivate myself to get out without my kids because I have no idea what to do without them.  I have been in the all consuming land of Mommyhood long enough for it to have sucked away any former identity that I had.  Not to mention that I’m a different person now then I was at 22. My interests have shifted away from the constant viewing, discussing and analyzing of reality TV to the occasional, well timed reference…or so I tell myself.

So, what do other Mommies do for “me” time?  Are they out enjoying the haunts of their former lives?  Have they maintained interests outside there home and children? 

Is everyone else really cooler than me?  Because I seem to do a whole lot of sitting around pondering my existence that others aren’t doing.

S, cool mommies I ask you this:  What do you do for fun?  How often are you “enter your name here,” rather than Mommy? And, if my theory of coolness is true, how do you balance you with them?

Any insight would be appreciated because my impending level of lameness is frightening.